.: sensitive issue! :.

NO MORE H.E.A.R.T IN FRONT OF ME!

its sadden me off..each time when people talking about heart...it stops my heartbeat..wallah~ why?? its kinda of sensitive things for me now..and mybe forever...suma nya punca pasal doktor tuh!! argh!!! xyah ckp ah! sedih kot....
just me, me, and me je yg tau how sad it was.....sabar kuchen! sabar kuchen! if i was patient enough pun, tetap aku sorang je tahu perasaan tu..org len sng lah ckp sabar...but its me!!! it is me who will face it!!! betoi lah ckp wawa... tuhan xkan bg sesuatu dugaan kat hamba dye yg lemah..Dia akan bg sesuatu dugaan tu mengikut kemampuan hamba dye..tp maslhnye...mampu ke aku???? urghhh!!!! its hard for me!!
each time i enter the class, i will face him..(korg tau lah kan..huhuh)and look into his eyes on how much he hopes me to recover..tp kenyataan nye..i'll never heal..! tp makin worse ada lah...did he ready for the second lost in his life?? hummm....
susah....sgt susah.....xkan tiap2 masa aku nk pretend to be happy..sampai bila? humm...xpe lah..nk wt cmne..dugaan.......~